a fangirl's struggles

I am writing this blog to express what I feel in my life.

For the past months, I am living without worries and in a split seconds the worriless life comes to an end. I am facing a problem that I feel that there is no answer to it. I thought this 2012 will be good to me and to my family, but it is not. My mom left, our business blooms, fails, and now we will leave our house, our home where I spent my 21 years of my existence.

Now I know what it feels like when changing houses, I thought it would be easy for us but it is not.
I don't know what will happen to my life for the next few months.

Will I still be able to feed myself?

Will I be employed and earn my own money?

Can we pay all our debts?

Can I still live this world alone?

Before, I always wanted to be independent, but now I am afraid to face the world of independence. Should I blame my father for not thinking that we depended ourself too much to him? Everytime I felt this, I always think that if I can do it now? I am afraid that I may fail and will not be able to support myself.

I want to be a POSITIVE THINKER, but I don't know why that my Negative thoughts are always running on my mind. What should I do to fight this negative thoughts??

I want to have a JOB now, but I don't know where and how to start. Can someone give me words of encouragement for me to be able to face all this challenges.

good night

Before my night ends I just want to share this video.
I don't usually ship make believe couples in a group but when I see them my heart feels that I should ship them.
HAHAHA.

credits to the owners

I just thought that Eric-leader is such a passionate partner, he really loves skinship! ohgosh! why so similar to Choi Siwon??? hahaha..

anyways, just sharing that video. hope you'll enjoy watching! :)

GOOD NIGHT! <3

new found love

I never expect that I will love this group.
Before their comeback I just ignored every Youtube link and News Articles about them.
I never took time to sneak or read about their history.
But now, because of my love for Super Junior I accidentally met this very awesome group.
An addition to my fandoms, though they are aged already they stayed the same.
The friendship, trust and love for their fans still remained.

I welcome this awesome guys to my fandom world.

***drumrolls***

 

SHINHWA

 

 

 

Since I'm a new fan, I still have lots of things that I need to know about them. I am looking forward to knowing each and everyone of them.

 

For now, my biases are Andy, Eric and Junjin. But like what I felt from the other groups though I have my major bias members when I see them all together my heart really flatters and I am loving them more and more not just an individual member but as a group.

 

Thanks to my super fandom, SUPER JUNIOR for introducing their seniors to me. Don't worry you're still my number 1. **bbuing! bbuing!**

 

 

confused

I want to share my stories here but I don't know how to begin. 

What to say. 

How to start.

gosh! so confusing!

Why is it that I don't have the talent in writing blogs?

aish! 

Jay Park Live in Manila [06May2012]

my pictures during Jay Park's Manila Album Launch..
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Still In Love ~ CNBlue

CNBlue's new song!

woot woot! it's really a EAR FUN song.

Looking forward for their other songs :)

Let's watch their MV and make it to 1Million views.

go go go!

B Class Life

as I'm watching Dream High 2 this song really caught me. hehehe.
It's so cute! :)

I LOVE IT!


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Currently watching :)

I'm so addicted with Korean Dramas lately, after watching Wild Romance.

I'm now watching Dream High 2 :) yay! I was able to watch Dream High 1 so I'm also watching the Second Season. keke. I really recommend this :)

next drama to watch >>> The Moon That Embraces The Sun
I'm hearing lots of good comments about the drama so I must watch it before it's too late..

Achievement for 2011

One of my GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT for 2011 is ....

tadan!!

I was able to purchase all versions of Super Junior's 5th Album and Super Show 3 Live CD. and take note, it's all in Korean Version. whoaaaa! I can't still imagine that I was able to have them. I'M SO HAPPY!! all the efforts of saving money is really WORTH IT!!

Wild Romance

From a sad post, I will now share a brighter post. LOL.

I just finished watching the new Korean Drama of Lee Dong Wook and Lee Si Young which is entitled "WILD ROMANCE". I so LOVE this drama not because I'm a big fan of Lee Dong Wook but because I really enjoyed the story.

When I first heard of Lee Dong Wook's next drama, I was so excited because I still have the LDW syndrome after Scent of a Woman. And I felt that this drama would be so amazing because it will showcase the different sides of Lee Dong Wook and Lee Si Young.

And so, as the series started, I now started to watched it online. This is again the time that I followed the drama from the cast, OSTs, updates, etc. AND YEAH! I got so addicted. Though, as the story goes by, it adds a lot of twists because it got low ratings. and I REALLY HATE WHY! The story is really nice and different. Lee Dong Wook and Lee Si Young really has a good chemistry. They are more compatible than the other supporting casts in the story.

But still, I was really contented with the ending because they still end up together. Though there are lots of cliffhanger parts. HAHA. I'm still hoping or we are still hoping (the Park Mu Yeol & Yu Eun Jae shippers) for Lee Dong Wook and Lee Si Young together again for a new drama because it's so frustrating that they had the lesser sweet moments.

They are our OTP in the drama.
It's a must watch drama. Hope other's will watch it too :)

First Blog Post for 2012

It's been a long time since I last posted here. Many things had happened for the past year and this past months.

One thing that I will never forget is that December 25, 2011 & January 1, 2012 would be my Mom's last Christmas and New Year's Day with us. My mom passed away last January 9, 2012, it was really the saddest moment of my life / of our life. It's really unexpected that mom would be leaving this world. She struggled so much, she fought her disease for months only. We always thought that she's already fine but it's not. So the sudden death really breaks our heart.

My mom is not the mom material but she is a friend material. She has a lot of friends who love, care and respect her. Yes, we sometimes fight but I know it's part of a mom-daughter relationship. And now, I really feel the emptiness now that she's gone. But I'm still thankful because she will not worry about us anymore. She's now in good hands and guiding us always.

For you Mom, I REALLY MISS YOU! I already said that I am not your sweetest daughter but I know that you felt my LOVE and CARE for you during your last days here.

THANK YOU for everything! I LOVE YOU! I MISS YOU!



--chelle--